When you told me about my dad's sadness and my mom's shame, it really brought out my empathy towards them. I think by reminding myself about those, and to try to see the bigger point of view rather than letting myself stuck in the tiny loop of what has happened in the past, can eventually help me to forgive my parents.
I have been searching for forgiveness in all the wrong places. I thought forgiveness was to keep blowing on your wounds until it felt better. But maybe it was about finally stopping to blow on your wound, knowing that I have tried my best to heal the wound, even though the wound still sometimes hurts and maybe will leave a scar. Because finding peace that I have gained the knowledge to accept the wound, to nurse it, and to move onward feels so abundant, so overflowing in my heart.
When we discussed about my calling, I have been feeling like maybe I was given these challenges because it has something to do with the duty that I supposed to do in this life. So, it really rings true for me.
I actually felt mixed feelings of touched, surprised, and confused when you told me that I am 'love'. Because that is surely who I want to become. For me, it's been like, 'I don't know where I'm going, or even if I'm going the right way, but I'm going'. And suddenly you just said, 'You're there.' So yeah, that was a bit of a shock. 😅
It brought me peace that someone out there is looking for me. Because there is still a teensy part of me that refuses to believe that I am worthy of love, and it really calmed her down.
And the message that it's okay for me to take something, not to always give, was a direct and clear one. Because I do tend to overextend myself, and I do have a lot of work where I should prioritize myself more.
I have certainly gained so much clarity through our session, and I will definitely recommend it to my friends who have interests in Akashic Reading ❤️